how too much is given to people...
some people may think that i was born with a silver spoon. Many others will think that this person has his road laid out for him. And yet many people tell this person that he is so fortunate...
But what if this person feels empty...feels insecure...feels unwanted...To develop the self is important...and i see that but if yourecognize yourself to be a person, why would other people contrdict what you believe in? Is it not within our own grasp to control our own lives.
The reason i feel this way is because i feel left behind...I feel i can't go well with the stream of the river. Im really jealous of people who have self confidence and who can exude great confidence portraying who they are. Sometimes, i feel that is it because I am not endowed enough with lasting beauty or with great personality. Sometimes, i wish i were someone else. A person more able to be himself...
I may be vocal about what i believe in but non the less, its more in the brain...to rationalize is very shallow...What i want is to experience every bit of human pleasure and pain. In which case, I coudn't even tap to. Emotional accpetance and the building of self-esteem is important...I would agree that my esteem is that low... i couldn't even confront problems concerning emtionality.
Sometimes i wished what if i lived in other peoples lives, this kind of jealousy doesn't make me angry but makes me look down on myself...fo this, I sometimes wonder, why do some people have it all...why coudn't I be one of them... I may sound selfish but someday I wish to be able to accept myself...
But what if this person feels empty...feels insecure...feels unwanted...To develop the self is important...and i see that but if yourecognize yourself to be a person, why would other people contrdict what you believe in? Is it not within our own grasp to control our own lives.
The reason i feel this way is because i feel left behind...I feel i can't go well with the stream of the river. Im really jealous of people who have self confidence and who can exude great confidence portraying who they are. Sometimes, i feel that is it because I am not endowed enough with lasting beauty or with great personality. Sometimes, i wish i were someone else. A person more able to be himself...
I may be vocal about what i believe in but non the less, its more in the brain...to rationalize is very shallow...What i want is to experience every bit of human pleasure and pain. In which case, I coudn't even tap to. Emotional accpetance and the building of self-esteem is important...I would agree that my esteem is that low... i couldn't even confront problems concerning emtionality.
Sometimes i wished what if i lived in other peoples lives, this kind of jealousy doesn't make me angry but makes me look down on myself...fo this, I sometimes wonder, why do some people have it all...why coudn't I be one of them... I may sound selfish but someday I wish to be able to accept myself...
posted by Zaki @ 8/28/2005 11:34:00 PM
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