Nice... Still working on it...

Working

Working.... i still like to work...

posted by Zaki @ 8/22/2007 08:02:00 PM Comments: 0

perfect girl

an ideal girl is...

1. someone who would like to be with you no matter what
2. someone whom you would like to be with no matter what
3. beauty inside as well as out
4. someone who has a sound mind
5. the person whom you would like to run to
6. independent but sometimes knows how to ask for help
7. someone who has humor...
8. someone who is silent but has sense when talking
9. someone who directs her life and not let others direct it for her
10. someone who lets others direct their lives because she knows that it is not hers to live
11. someone who talks when problems are present
12. someone who responds when talked to

I may not have the right to place barriers to what type of girl... but when someone comes... i hope to be able to see that someone and when all my barriers will be meaningless... that is the time when I would say that...She is my ideal one...uuu

posted by Zaki @ 10/22/2006 04:05:00 PM Comments: 0

me, myslef and I

more and more... i came to understand myself... I sometimes read in books about how my life works... or at what stage I am now... but come to think of it, i failed to achieve some milestones that needed to be addressed when I was still young...

I don't trust people with what and who I am. It is really hard for me to gain understanding. Most of the time, I could be as hard as a rock and not feeling sympathy for the others. I percieve myself to be of no emotion... I still think of the times where I showed anger, fear or even love and happiness. But I came to think that although my heart was at the right stage of emotion, my head kept pulling me back.

Frankly, I am practical... i most of the time just go by with the things that are present of that can be used. Although, I respect people who are idealistic. The mind always tells us what to do, and sometimes, it doesn't feel right... and even at times... when it feels so right, it should never be done...

I might write the things that bother me...because I lack a quality that other people have... something deep that I envy from people... it is their ability to choose... Not the choosing which involves tangible objects... it is the choosing of inherent qualities of people.... As for me, I am last to be chosen, not by my choice but by others.... Someone who is left behind, or last in line, or someone who can be forgotten...

I am not regretting the things that I have done...but I sometimes regret the people I have met.... so far, it always seems a new experience for me to engage in new interactions... at least, I have a clean slate...

posted by Zaki @ 10/19/2006 01:18:00 AM Comments: 0

control

control is the most essential power of all powers... it is the epitome of existence. All things are related to control. It is either you are the one controlling or you are the one being controlled. Example...to control the air in which direction gives you the power of wind... but there are limits to the use of control. It might be limited to the size of the fan you are using that determines the speed and power of the wind that you are producing. Another example, the use of hands, it is evident enough to say that everything can be made by human hands but there is such limitations to creation...one can only manipulate existing substances present around and manipulate it by the use of human hands.

Therefore, common ground dictates to us who posses ultimate control and upto how much extension is control practiced?

posted by Zaki @ 9/22/2006 12:54:00 AM Comments: 0

willing to wait...

waiting is a term used by the patient. Ordinarily, relativity only matters to words such as love, compassion, greed, good, bad, ugly, pretty, nice, superior et. al. It seems that no one can really encapsulate these terms. So, there comes chaos... to understand somthing that can never be understood... to put words in other people's mouths and tell them that this is love or that is caring or that is bad and this is good. Such chaos is brought by people having differnt levels of understanding...in terms of feeling, knowing and acting. It is also clear that every person has his or her own belief pattern system wherein, past experiences or new experiences are embedded in their definition of their relitively mattered terms. But even with people proclaiming that they are living their own life and following their own pattern in life, it is not safe to say that they are free from any social clause or any social capsule. It is in their interaction now that predetermines how they can act in a society.

The only possible thing to do is wait...although it might depend on how the people look at it... but it is determined how you like it to be. how should life be like?... who spins it?... who wills it?... who lives it?

Waiting is the only thing I can do... but the problem is how long am i willing to wait?

posted by Zaki @ 8/27/2006 08:47:00 PM Comments: 0